There was nothing remarkable about Nicole except her mouth. Her mouth was small and shapely — pink and perfect, as if Botticelli painted it himself. I fell in love with her mouth. I fell in love with her in the same manner that anyone ever falls in love — by ignoring all other dissatisfying traits.
When I say I loved her mouth, I mean everything belonging to it. Her voice was sweet and low. Her teeth all in a row of ivory white, like the naturals on a piano. Every word was a song, every sentence a sonata. Once, I think, she told me I never listen. I don’t know how she could say that when I was so clearly fixated on her voice.
Sometimes, she would pucker her lips just slightly when she was thinking. It was somewhat awkward on its own, but endearing, and all I could think about was kissing her for the rest of the day.
And to kiss her — oh to kiss her! Was there ever a sweeter thing? Moist and soft, but not overly so on either trait, her kisses were like warm silk pillows embracing me.
One particularly chilly day, she came home from work. She began to tell me about her day and I noticed a sort of off-color smear near the corner of her mouth, lightly tinged with red. What is this?, I asked, and for the first time I noticed her eyes were sort of a bland shade of hazel — like the color of a smoothie that on first sight you’re convinced will taste like vomit. She began to ramble nervously, I’m sorry, I just … Well, my lips were chapped, and my friend, she had lips gloss, and .. Your friend? What friend? I’ve never met your friend.
Blind rage struck me, I began to approach her, and she began to back away … after that there are only flashes of what happened, I was so angry. I loved her, and she betrayed me, but I love her still. There was some fighting. We made love. She was beautiful, but not long after she was gone. She was so young. How did she leave me so soon?
When she died, I asked the mortician not to put make-up on her mouth. He tried to explain to me that she was different now, that her body was in decay – I didn’t care.
At the funeral only her family, my family, and a few close friends attended. It was held in a church, despite my lack of faith. It was dry-eyed and silent, except for the minister going on about how she has started a new journey; she will see the face of God and he will smile upon her; she is in a place where there is no pain. It was as if he was trying to make us jealous.
I walked up to the casket and looked down at her, suddenly horrified. Her pink lips were white and cracked, a masterpiece left to rot. I scanned the rest of her face, her body, her delicate hands I never noticed but held so often. It was at that moment that I realized that I never knew Nicole, and now no one ever will.